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Never Say This To Your Wife When The Kids Keep You Both Up All Night

After getting up in the middle of the night to take care of his infant daughter, dad and author Clint Edwards muttered something to his wife when returning to bed.

He learned the hard way to never say it again.

I was chatting with my wife about the long night wed had getting up with the baby, when I said, At least I get up with her. A lot of men dont. You should be grateful.




I was tired. And I said it like she was really lucky to have me. Like I was going above and beyond as a father.

It was just after 7 a.m. Mel paused for a moment, leaned back in the chair, Aspen sleeping in her lap. Her eyes were a little red, and her brown hair was in a loose ponytail. She held the baby a little closer and took in what I had said. I expected her to agree with me. We sometimes talked about the fathers we knew who didnt get up with their babies. They viewed it as the mothers job.

But she didnt.

Instead, Mel crossed her legs, looked me in the eyes, and said, I wish you would stop saying that.

At the time, Mel was a nearly full-time college student, a mother of three, and a school volunteer (a requirement of our childrens charter school). She spent hours sitting at our kitchen table, hunched over a keyboard, a textbook to her right, and at least one child tugging at her pant leg.

And despite her commitment to education, and how much I pitched in, she often commented on the pressure she felt to keep a clean house not to mention take the children to the doctor, cook meals, shuttle the kids to sports and other extracurricular activities, keep them looking clean and healthy, and monitor their behavior in public. She was a student and a mother, and yet she felt an enormous pressure to be the sole caregiver of our children.

And there I was, feeding into those expectations by mentioning my help in the night as if it were some generous extension of my role as a father.

Naturally, I didnt think about any of this at the time. What I said was my way of trying to get her to notice my contribution to our marriage.

As a father, I often feel like Im really breaking the mold because I do pitch in around the house. If Im home from work, Im cleaning; I get up in the night and do numerous other things to help make our marriage a partnership.

But for some reason I felt like I should receive special attention for doing things that have been, for so many years, seen as the mothers job.

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clint edwards new bookI was dressed in slacks and a collared shirt. In my right hand was a purple bag with my lunch. I paused for a moment, took a step back, and said, Why? I mean, its true. I do a lot of stuff that other fathers dont. Im a good guy.

Mel was standing now, the baby in her arms. Our older two children were still sleeping, so we were speaking in whispers. Because it doesnt make me feel like were in a partnership. It makes me feel like you want me to kiss your butt every time you get up in the night. This is your baby, too.

We went back and forth for a while. She told me how she appreciated all that I do to help around the house, but she hated the way I acted like I was doing something really great, when in fact I was just doing what a father should.

 

My knee-jerk reaction was to get pissed off. I wanted to give her a list of other fathers we knew, family and friends, who still subscribed to antiquated notions of gender roles. I went to open my mouth, but stopped for just a moment, thought about my feelings, and realized it was best to leave before I said something I shouldnt. So I left for work without saying a word.

I drove to work angry.

I was 20 minutes into my 30-minute commute when I thought about the last time I had washed dishes. Id assumed that I should be getting praise or a reward, and for the first time, I asked myself, Why? I ate there, too.

Then I thought about vacuuming the carpet, or doing the laundry, realized I had the same expectations about those chores, and suddenly I felt like a jerk. The understanding that Mel was responsible for home and childcare was so deeply ingrained in my understanding of family and contribution that Id placed myself on a pedestal for doing something as simple as helping my wife with our baby in the night.

By the time I parked and walked to my office, I felt really low. I called Mel from work and told her I was sorry. Youre right, I said. This is a partnership, and I shouldnt act like Im doing some amazing thing because I get up in the night. Im going to stop.

Mel was quiet for a moment.

Then she said, Thank you.

When hes not saying insane things to his kid, Clint Edwardsswork has been featured on Good Morning America, The New York Times, The Washington PostandThe Huffington Post. Hes the author of two books –This Is Why We Cant Have Nice Thingsand I’m Sorry…Love, Your Husband.

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